Hello.....
This is Namjoon...
You can call me Joonie...or Joon...or maybe Nam....
As long as u don't call me Jelly Bean, it's fine...that name is reserved for a someone I will not name.
/sigh/ Hopefully, I don't break the internet...I'm terrible at these things....
I...just wanted a place I could vent...can this be it? Please? I won't bother u much, I promise....
Today....
I waited...I didn't speak first....I waited for him to notice me. I waited for a morning greeting or a kiss on the cheek, a hug would have been nice...even a cuddle...
I saw him in another chat room, with someone else...being flirty....my heart broke a little...
I told myself he's busy, he has some ooc problems...'wait a bit Namjoon, he'll greet u soon...u are his boyfriend after all...'
I waited in vain...I greeted him first, when I couldn't stand the loneliness any longer. It was weird...he seemed distant and unsure...
Is it really that difficult for him to hug me, to hold me...to tell me he loves me?
Why do I feel as if I have to beg for his attention? I'm his boyfriend! I should be first priority, right? Then...why do I feel as if we became strangers?
I dunno wat to do anymore...I love him too much...it hurts...
Current mood:
Depressed, lonely, horny af
-Namjoonie
